I know being a mom will be tough. I just wasn't prepared for how difficult it would be to become one. Our Plan originally was to use known donors to help achieve pregnancy. It comes with a pretty daunting legal risk, but seemed the most ideal and personal way to approach conceiving.
However, this approach meant relying on another person, and with that came the question of his emotional readiness.
After the most recent potential donor (who also happened to be #3) backed out at the end of this summer, I found it increasingly difficult to write posts that didn't focus on my disenchantment. I have so much I want to blog, to discuss, to explore, but each time I sit down to write, I cannot bring myself to do it.
I want to write a mommy blog, but I'm not a mom.
And despite our efforts, I'm not a mother.
